Awake

Like drifting in a lazy river of coffee
my senses intensify
every whisper is an echo in the darkness

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Daughter

Looking into your eyes
I see a window to the past
Filling me with memories
of days gone by
I'm surrounded by warmth
swallowed by emotion
My love for you is indescribable
Living without you is unimaginable
You are every reason I have to live
To be more
I will never give up on you.
You are my heartbeat, my life, my future
My Daughter

I Believe

I believe in love
Indestructible and true
I believe in faith
that moves mountains
I believe that tomorrow
will be better than today
I believe that pain
is a stepping stone
I believe my tears
cleanse my soul each day
I believe in me
I believe in you.

I'm in love

Surrounded by these crazy feelings, warmth envelops me.
I can endure the pain of the past.
Preparing for the strength of our future.
No longer will I feel the cold creeping up my soul.
He gives me the mind blowing pleasure that I'm willing to smother in.
No one reaches that deep in my heart.
He invades my thoughts at random times, sending chills down my spine.
My world is spinning, thrown off course.
All from being in love with a boy.

Squeeze

Suffocating.
I can't breathe.
Something is taking the life right out of me.
I feel the fingers around my neck
Spreading down my arms
Tying my fingers in knots
I feel it in my stomach
A blackness I can't explain
Pain in my heart
Strangling me.
I can't breathe.

Liquid Pain Killer

I pour myself another drink, knowing this one will do the trick
one more shot will make it spin, throw this world into a spiral,
make everything disappear.
I want the world to be black.
I want to feel invisible.
I want to forget the past and the pain and all that falls in between.
For just tonight, I want to pretend to be happy.
I want to wear an iron smile on my face that can't be broken.
A smile they will all remember, the eyes they cannot forget.
I'll be the muse to the music that dances in their heads.
Unforgettable, the way we move. Disguising heartache in a dance.
Hiding tears, erasing years.
Tonight, I will be the one all the girls wish they could be.
I will pretend to be the one and play the part well.
Tonight, I am unafraid.
I'll hold my drink high as I play the game.
Knowing at the end of the night,
my head will hang in shame.

Mirror

Staring in the mirror, I see a familiar face. Someone I once knew very well.
Looking at her now, I see an empty shell. She's trying to reach out to me,
but I close my eyes. I'm just not ready.
I keep turning away from where I need to be. I know what I'm doing.
It is clear for me to see. I'm running away as fast as I can.
No destination, no well thought out plan.
The one moment in time when it just feels right... that is what I'm waiting for.
Searching every face in every place, wondering where it may be.
That one single moment to bring genuine happiness.
Just one moment to remember all my life.
That is what I live for.
while patiently waiting for the other side of me.
Where is she?

No More

Night after night I'd whisper this song
close by your ear I'd sing these words
Hoping and wishing that just this once
You'd hear the things I'm begging you to feel
So many times you've held me close
without touching me at all

I walk in this house you keep calling home
Today, more than ever, I feel so alone
You nod my way, a passing glance
Anticipating night fall
ready to take another chance
A chance to fake a love that doesn't exist
Eager to play a role, so far long gone

Tonight, something is different
I can't remember the words to the song
I was so content in singing
Something about tonight tells me
we're done
And I won't give you another chance
not even just one

I've worked so hard climbing these walls
you skillfully built around you
But Baby
I've fallen for the last time
No more nights, singing you to sleep
No more mornings, waking up to me
From this day on, I'm just a memory